How's life?

Mine:

I'm now in my twenties, and all I can sum up in one word it's kinda frustrating to be honest. I am enjoying and trying to be grateful for life itself, yes. But there is an area which I still find confusing, like which path I wanna take, should I work professionally for the rest of my whole life, or do this content-blogging-tiktok-instagram-ecommerce-hosting, or what's so-called Key Opinion Leader or Influencer, which I don't see myself sometimes.

I used to attend events a lot during my university days, but I guess there are more new and fresh content creators coming up, and sometimes I also feel not enough and zone out. I wanna feel like making content is not an obligation; rather, I wanna post things that are close to my heart. Not just for the sake of reviews or paid endorsement. 

On the other hand, I also wanna be a normal person with boring routine lifestyle. Like going to the office 9-5,  maybe working overtime just to squeeze in tea time with colleagues or friends in the middle of office time. Going to the mall near the office just to breathe some fresh air during work stress. AND... JUMPING THE COMPANY LADDER! hahaha but I buried all them down already, cus I'm getting old and I need to be persistent about my career choice (?)

Or should I take another major that has a totally different background from my bachelor's degree, such as Medicine, to fulfill my childhood dream? I turned out taking some Harvard Online Courses about Health and Nutrition. I know it's peculiar. But I love myself for being brave enough to take action about what I am passionate about. I wanna be a doctor, if I can't, I also can't stop loving health and the business inside.

How about living abroad to experience new things or maybe, just maybe, to find my future lover or husband, just like in Korean dramas or Romantic Movies. Maybe, Kerene in England or America? hahahahahaahaha pity me.

But in the end, I also can't manipulate the eagerness to make more money out of making content. How to make it even more polished, even if I'm such a conventional type of person. I like uploading something without filters, captions, editing, etc. Which I know it's sometimes not up to this digital era standard. Uhm..

Wait, I forgot to tell you that I also tried doing live videos and making TikTok content for about 2/3 months straight. I found out that most people there love videos more, the ones which is catchy, bright, colourful text added, which is not so me. I know I am such an Instagram Girlie. I hate to say this, which makes me sound bitter about this new algorithm and social media. Should I make content that follows the more viral or out-of-the-box content, the more it matters?

Good thing is, i also find new tiktok friends, even crush, i also got sweet viewers that sent me food during tiktok live, asking about my day, supporting online to make more contents, or doing live videos at my favorite malls, or going outside, because they know i will be stressed at home all the time.

Time is short there, but I feel heartfelt. Even if there are people who hate on me or are racist about minorities, and make me worry about doing live videos sometimes. But why focus on the one who hates us if there are more who love us?

I hope we all can experience good things in life and feel content about ourselves, what we are doing, and the conditions we are facing. 

Too many good fortunes, opportunities, and better health. 

Love, Ker.