I wanna ask two questions for you: 

Do you forgive because you have been forgiven? 

(As what we’ve read in the bible)

Or do you forgive just because you want peace for yourself? 

Maybe those two questions have a similar answer: because He forgave us first, then we should forgive the others. It brings peace beyond our understanding. 

There are times when I carry so much burden in my life that my heart feels like it's stopping, and I feel nauseous because things or people hurt me. I can't sleep. I feel like I want to cut off everything, the relationship, and throw things away because they remind me of the person. Hahaaha, pity me.

As a big believer in this “ People who love me should care about how I feel and it all matters.” 

Hmm, maybe I'll just forget it but the pain still lingers and I still won't forgive them. 

What goes around, comes back around, they say. 

Not until… One of my closest one say that, if you still hate the person, what they did to you, praying for bad deeds to come to them, you will be just the same as them.

Move on, grow, do what's best for you until you forgive, you love yourself with or without them. Until no one, no action can affect your feelings. 

And I believe the good will multiply and when you shift your focus on you. When you succeed, you won't have time and space for them in your heart anymore. 

Cus you are content, happy and it overflows, and you'll attract more good people like you. <3 

Love, Ker.